Holy mother what on earth is going on!
Last post was almost 5 months ago.. and in those 5 months I did 3 amazing weeks of Exante and even though I started back at a whopping 188lbs, I stuck to my shakes and got down to 172lbs by the end of August.
Since then I’ve munched my way straight back up to 186lb and feel fat and grumpy and bleurgh. I’ve yo-yoed from 175 to 185 and back since the end of August until now but it’s getting silly!
I’ve not seen the gym in months and my fridge is home to cake and cake. So I took the plunge and bought a 12 week countdown (plus 3 holiday weeks) back at Slimming World. I may not follow the plan right to the 12th week but for now it works.
I also got myself new gym plans and food plans and back to the gym I am going to be a BEAST!
The biggest motivation for all this was (no pun intended) I bust out of my one and only pair of jeans… bought two new pairs and NEITHER fit!! Hippo!!!
So here it is… a new start (again)
I will be back to being happy with my weight.
My new word is “fat” – not very new you might think. Neither did I until just now but I have had a thought.
Here I am, on the point of daily tears because my weight is getting out of control. I’ve gone from 11 stone 9lbs up to a current weight of 12 stone 12lbs. Oops! It sucks and it feels like a never ending upwards spiral.
But today I am going to try. I am outside the gym about to go in. Because I am “fat” – Fabulous And Trying!
Oh yes! Bring on the new positive Binny (fingers crossed guys) I am more fed up of being fed up right now than I think I’m fed up of being overweight – how bad is that?
So plan of action!
1 – gym every day!
2 – rejoin an actual Slimming World group!
3 – stop moping
4 – go buy some new gym kit to cheer me up and motivate me
5 – enjoy it
Off I go!!!
Well a year has passed since I ended the crappiest relationship ever and I’m so much happier.
But in that year I have gained a stone. Luckily it hasn’t been more than a stone but I can’t seem to lose any of it either.
Well it turns out that today is exactly 2 months until my boyfriend’s birthday. (That’s 9 weeks to be precise!)
I have decided that is a real goal with a real event that I will have to be at. Something to aim for. Before this, all my goals have been non-specific. I’d give myself a month or two months etc but there was no THING at the end to be slimmer FOR!
Well here goes the next 9 weeks. Starting now. I’m on it. I promise. I will lose a stone by then.
Things I Will Do
* daily food diary
* weigh and measure my HEXS
* count my syns
* sort out what I’m doing with the gym
I have gone back for a full week, then messed my back up and rested… then rest got longer.. and longer. And what do you know, another month of no gym.
I need to sit down and decide if I can justify the cost if I am not going to go.