My new word is “fat” – not very new you might think. Neither did I until just now but I have had a thought.
Here I am, on the point of daily tears because my weight is getting out of control. I’ve gone from 11 stone 9lbs up to a current weight of 12 stone 12lbs. Oops! It sucks and it feels like a never ending upwards spiral.
But today I am going to try. I am outside the gym about to go in. Because I am “fat” – Fabulous And Trying!
Oh yes! Bring on the new positive Binny (fingers crossed guys) I am more fed up of being fed up right now than I think I’m fed up of being overweight – how bad is that?
So plan of action!
1 – gym every day!
2 – rejoin an actual Slimming World group!
3 – stop moping
4 – go buy some new gym kit to cheer me up and motivate me
5 – enjoy it
Off I go!!!
You guys probably know that excess skin is a big (no pun intended) issue for me.
I lost almost 10 stone pretty fast after weight loss surgery. Combine that with a medical condition the vastly drops the elasticity of my skin and you end up with me – living in a skin suit several sizes too big.
Currently I weigh 12 stone 10 lbs. The lowest I’ve ever managed was 11 stone 10 lbs. This is because, even though my official “healthy weight” is sub 10st 10lb, the majority of my overweight is down to skin.
Several consultations later both NHS and privately and the consensus is I would be a healthy weight if the skin was gone – it is just skin with no fat attached.
Sadly the NHS surgery team will only see me if I lose another 2 stone. I am struggling on but medical professionals say it’s highly unlikely I will manage it.
Privately, the surgery reaches £20,000 – a figure I can only dream of. Hence Go Fund Me!
I decided that if everyone else can crowdfund for their dreams why can’t I? I worked hard to get to where I am but I physically cannot change myself anymore without help.
That is why I’m here – if anyone who sees this post can donate just a pound or two or even just share it with their friends, family and coworkers I would be so grateful!
Hello you! Where have I been? Well that is a good question – the honest answer?
Probably head first in the fridge shovelling in cookies! Oops!
But I am in fact back and with a vengeance.
Today (technically yesterday – I’ll get to that) is a new day! New Binny! New body!
Weight – 175lb
Height – 5ft 6in
Calories – 1919
Carbs – 182g
Protein – 140g
Fats – 70g
So what’s new? Why all the numbers? Well you see, I am back to the gym after a break and back hard. And Slimming World just isn’t cutting it anymore. Why work hard at the gym learning all about your muscles and what helps etc when at the end of the day you either blow all your syns on protein shakes (that SW’ers frown upon!) Or you can scoff 15 syns of junk (which SW’ers are known to do!)
I want to eat healthy, and clean. Why can’t I eat an avocado but your weight in white rice is ok? Hmm.
So what did Binny find?
Well, originally a contest! That’s what! Bodybuilding.com in conjunction with BSN supplements are holding a 6-week bulk/shred competition with a $10,000 prize up for grabs – now that’s what I call motivation!
And it was thanks to this, and subsequently the Team Shred forum that I found IIFYM. (If It Fits Your Macros) Theory is; you have an amount of carbs, fats and proteins that reflect whether you want to lose, gain or maintain. How you eat these is up to you but ideally as clean as possible.
Well I think I may have found it. A sustainable way of eating/working out that means I can eat what I want when I want – as long as “IFYM” 😀
And my first meal of the first day off SW? Avocado!!