Ok so here we go. Again.
Being overweight – it’s huge. (Pun may or may not have been intended. Decide amongst yourselves)
I have not lost a lb. Not one single lb. In fact I had a horrifying moment of hitting 202lb… not only did I cross from 100s to 200s but I believe that is actually closer to my start goal than my ultimate goal.
Things I am Trying
- Exercise – I bought a spin bike. £50. I’m hoping it’ll be used more and more as time goes on. Currently 30 minutes a day is the goal. 10 minutes at a time. When I can.
- Weighing – I have been known to cheat. Weigh 100s of times a day. Before the bathroom, after bathroom. Naked, clothed. I also have knocked off weight that I record because “I drank a tea” or “I’ve not peed today yet” so I bought Withings scales! Even in the sale they were £73… but they upload my weight automatically to various apps and then it’s out there.. in the Internet world. I can’t lie and take it back. I can’t knock anything off either as the weight goes directly – no edits! I’ve so far weighed a lot less since.
And last but not least… I’ve been referred to an eating disorder dietician.. Which has been a long time coming and will hopefully sort some stuff out
In other news… I have rejoined the gym too as I finally grew a pair and applied for a work transfer!! Go me!! This means work not only sucks less.. but I also can go back to Spin classes in the mornings. Yay!!!
My new word is “fat” – not very new you might think. Neither did I until just now but I have had a thought.
Here I am, on the point of daily tears because my weight is getting out of control. I’ve gone from 11 stone 9lbs up to a current weight of 12 stone 12lbs. Oops! It sucks and it feels like a never ending upwards spiral.
But today I am going to try. I am outside the gym about to go in. Because I am “fat” – Fabulous And Trying!
Oh yes! Bring on the new positive Binny (fingers crossed guys) I am more fed up of being fed up right now than I think I’m fed up of being overweight – how bad is that?
So plan of action!
1 – gym every day!
2 – rejoin an actual Slimming World group!
3 – stop moping
4 – go buy some new gym kit to cheer me up and motivate me
5 – enjoy it
Off I go!!!
So I have messed around for too long. I haven’t been to the gym (bar two half hearted efforts) since October time! That’s shocking especially considering how hard I’d worked at it.
Now before it all goes down the drain I have sucked it up so I no longer need to suck it in!
I have signed up for a 100 day gym challenge/programme and guess what guys? Here I am on day 3 and I’m actually in the gym. That may not seem like that big a deal to some but it’s huge to me – it’s the biggest streak so far since I stopped coming.
I also miss iifym! Weird huh? I rejoined Slimming World in January but have yet to actually stick to it for a week! How I’ve lost anything is beyond me to be honest.
Back to tracking macros I go. I’m resetting my fitness pal and off I go. First thing on the menu – avocado and lime rice!! Get in my belly.
Coming up next – a week long meal plan to get myself in gear. I will be fit and toned for summer and I will be given my surgery!!
Gym come at me!